I could leave but I'll just stay, all my stuff's here anyway.

I've come to terms with the fact that I have a small family.
It's kind of a fact. With only two aunts, one uncle and two cousins, who all happen to live a couple hours away from me, in comparison to most, I have a small family.
And that's fine, like I said, I've come to terms with that fact along time ago, what else can you do about it? They're my family.
But in the last year or so, I've become increasingly aware of the fact that my family is not, in fact limited to these five people. I realized that the term, "family" actually extends to include alot of people in my life, who I've never noticed how much I really care about. I can think of tons of people that have known me since I was born, or who were always there for me, or who have spent more time in my house over the years than I have. So I've realized that I kind of love these people.... yeah that's pretty much what I wanted to say.

So lately the pending issue of university has become more and more imminent. It's looming dangerously close. I've done a bit of research about which schools I'd be interested in, but I hadn't thought much about whether or not I'd like to stay at home, or leave. But alot of the schools I as looking at ended up being far away. So after a while I kind of just assumed I would move away, without even thinking about it. Well in the past week, I've thought about it... alot. I've realized that I'm nowhere near ready to go away. Only having just started to understand how important the people in my life are to me, I can't leave tehm all already. I feel like if I go, I'll never see any of these people I care about and love so much. Since they aren't actually a technical part of my famly they will no longer be obligated to visit me on a regular basis if I leave home.

These thoughts terrifies me D:
I think I'll just stay home.
I hate decisions and growing up.

P.S. Soup du jour: my family, Jim Glasgow's rad musical skills, underage drinking and bibbles.